KitKat baby

Exams are FINALLY over..thank God..freedom n peace for 3whole days..haha self-declared holiday today but as much as i want to make the best outa these three only days that i have before the bomb drops on my head, AGAIN..part of it has already been screwed up..im typing this blog with a not-so-nice mood la, so forgive the errors and language if theres any.

ok…thursday..the end of my last paper-mod maths..not so badla..i guess,i hope. Spent the rest of the day with my darling..who happens to be leaving outstation today- back on sunday (see one part SPOILT completely) but he didn hav a choice..n after our time spent together yday, i felt like we’ve gotten so much closer than before hehe…so good lAR.. then today, friday..woke up..for the first time in like a month i got to see the clock without planning silently in my head what subject im suppose to study on today !! i tell u, the feeling of relieve and freedom hit me on the exact right spot of my head-and it felt sooooooo good !neways, continueing..i lazed around in bed until i opened my eyes properly n found out that i slept in a beavers damp ! unfolded clothes everywhere,books,papers and notes all scattered on my table , on the floor, flowers and roses couloured my floor and most of all, fate my darling baby was on the floor ..so i got up around..err..9.45am.. after reconciling with my friend(s) whom i seem to neglect during my exams.. sorry but yay, thank God we had a great understanding! then got up, spring cleaned my WHOLE room..(its pretty sparkling now) and folded all the clothes upstairs,downstairs..sweeped the rooms..wash the clothes, rinse my bags..etc.. poof! finished all in all around after noon..sooo tired, but very satisfied

Then had a LIL argument with my mum..knowing dAT i am soo exhausteded, i had to go OUT for lunch, cant u buy back for me? - NO!- then my sis got up, ask her to buy back, n she said..-OKay no problem..EEEEEEEEEERRRRRRGggggggh.. sop unfairnesstess!! so i went LAr to eat simple fast n convinient mamak.. then came home..recalling the fight i had with my two sisters- nicole and diviya.. we’re suppose to go out today nite to curve to shop and spend time together, been planning this ever since our erm 5th paper i think…then last minute, last nite we canceled it for some really minor reasons..but then again, im half pissed half dont really care abt it.

Got into a real mess when i came back for lunch..hows it ever feel like ur just so upset and u wanted to tell ur boyfriend dat? and after telling, u wish u had never brought it up. WOrst of all, we’re on a so called "long distance relationship" now, so u can just imagine the pain and inconvinience we’re both in. Although its partly a minor issue, it did hurt both parties badly.Dont really know about him, but i cried myself to sleep and hehe..i slept for 3hours cOOl ! i needed tat sleep. so now..haihz..i have homework to do..one of my most "favourite" subject- physics..having class tmr at 8.30 am!! can u pls imagine dat?! another spoiler..then PLANNING to go down to curve with my gurlfrens..lets just see if that works out la..n hopefully get to spend time with sarah- my long lost girlfriend..i think shes kinda dissapointed now..n dat brings me even lower in my mood level..i mean im sorryla,but she wanted to talk yday and i was with tim. so i obviously will and hadto at tat time to stick with him.n today, was suppose to walk in the park, but ya, i was asleep n by time i woke up, the sky was really displeasing n she didnt call me.so u see, i really need to make it up to her..And, not forgetting my other friend, who somehow unfortunately have something bad..yupe as bad..as..close to having cancer! yupe, n shes only able to open up to me,not even to her closetest friend, dont really know why..but ya,im thankful dat im the one whom she trust but  yet i still feel bad,because i couldnt be there with her for her daily checkups,when she was having her scan, when she was on dripping.. although she wud call me everytime after her checkups, i would just be there for he r as a friend.i helped her schedual her surgery date, but she is just not ready to do it, n wanting so much to be there for my baptism next wee,shes not willing to take the risk of the surgery. i would and am very eager to follow her to the hospital this weekend.Im praying hard that God will grant me and her thr strenght.i can easily breakdown expecially in almost losing a friend like this.To make matters worst, my other half of me in all the way in Bidor

This sunday..yap the sunday before school begins again..im planning to go to church to sort out my baptism planning..oyea, getting baptize next sunday- 8 oct. All are most welcome to come ya..erm..should be at Life Chapel or Bu Chapel.. in the eve.will inform later ( see, i dont even know where myself)…n i have a so called appointment date lunch with my friend after church..one which i have postponing since last week..sorryla, its really not my fault my birthday is smacked right in the middle of trials..so ya, appreaciate the thought of taking me out for lunch, but yet im really sorry u had to ask so many times and get dissapointed answers..

SO all in all, u can see how "WOnderful" my so called freedom is..all i wanna do now is…go back to sleep…because,i can do anything in my dreams and it wont have any effect on neither u nor me. Dreams are merely a fantasy but they could come true..like what i dreamt after i sorta fought with tim, i didnt want to wake up from it, but ya i just had to. SO now,i wish all this was really just a dream.How i should  not have hurt tim(but i really felt like murdering someone).., how i shouldnt have neglected my friends during my exams,how i should have stand my ground on minor reasons to cancel a well-planned outing,how i should hav done that physics hw earlier and most of all how if i could have gone to Bidor with my darling to support and encourage him there. *big big sigh*

byeee !

mmmmm..i just feel like being nice to all the people i love..here goes :

TO :

My dad - He’s the most amazing/wonderful/patient/loving/caring parent,husband and clique to all his staff..He does things that all a wife and a daughther like me would ever ask for. He makes sure theres food on the table, works extra hours so that we as a family can go on vacation, spending on all necessary and non-necessary stuff just to make us happy ..plus he NEVER grumbles when im updating my clothes/heels/make-up/accessories/facial..etc..haha..and under MY experiment,he has good taste and great patience! howd i know - he follows me shopping!!!!

My mom - O..where do i even start? shes the most needable person i need in this world. As a mother, to me..she tends to ALL my needs..my cares..my troubles.. she supports me in ways i never expected her to..Shes a caring, loving wife to my dad..Although she has mood swings and stuff, shes a lady..just like me and you (if you’re a girl )..so in other words, i wont be here if not for her.

My sister - Shes really caring..especially when her assignments are pilling up and she has to travel back n forth, sleepless nights at her fren’s place..etc she will always make it a point to ask me how im doing- studies,relationships,friends.. anything..and besides that,shes really responsible (sometimes) hehe..not a very homely person but truly an amazing sister to have

My brother - i think i wrote a whole essay on him already but nevertheless, he is a really cute boy..(i didnt say this,adrian did..haha)..he can be really a bug-ger to me but also he can be the ONe i count on most when i feel down.

Tim Cheang - my darling, the reason i believe in Love is because of him. Very patient guy especially through my "motions of unpredictable".. Although he can be a lil persuasive sometimes..he’s never not accepting when he is at fault. (thats because i blame almost everything on him..hehe)..Clueless sometimes, but never hopeless..Because of distance, we both have difficulty in ‘being there’ for each other..but knowing that sometimes he tries so hard and cares so much..he doesnt need to be here physically to make my heart complete.Someone whom im looking forward to share not only my life with, but also my faith,my failures,my succesess and my whole being with ! Many miracles under God’s grace have been granted to us both.The most outstanding one that im sure we both will never forget, it this second chance we have to right what went wrong..He’s the one guy i’ve never expected to end up with as this age and get ALL the support and encouragement from my family, friends and most importantly, God. He’ just knows of ways to make me feel cherished, loved and cared for..but theres alot more work to be done in both him and me. My aim for us -the ideal couple in God’s eyes.

C.Diviya - shes one crazy piglet i tell u! the most crazzyestest hyperactive nonsense in the world (haha sorry div if ur reading this,i meant it in a VERY good way =p ) yet, she is the most countable and trustable friends i’ve ever known. Shes always there ( the fact that we’re stuck to each other for 6hours everyday at school) for me..through good AND bad times..im serious! no kidding, we share our life together..no we’re not lesbian..she has her other half n i have mine.. n we’re not giving that up so easily *winks*..but ya, i love her more than ever as a friend..we + nicole are planning to get married together..on the same day.. haha..lets just see if THAT works out

Nicole Ong - my one and only sayang..she..well we’ve been more that Super Glue to each other especially since form4..thanks to our wonderful prefect dinner co-ordination..we had so so so many journeys together..good,funny,bad and worst! yet,our friendship is still rock solid..thats what i call true friendship..plus i think we’re the only girls who thankfully turn out to be non lesbian as we’ve slept together,baked together,sung together,walk together,talk on the phone almost everyday(last time),and gyming together..and if SOME of u are wondering, no we did not bathe together!

Adrian Ng - My most amazing unique pal i’ve ever known..i tell you, this guy can really make u smile in times when u feel like just killing someone! yap hes that good …although we have been misunderstood by so many people so many times as a couple, we both know in and outside of our hearts, we’re no more than the MOST amazing people to each other!!wanna know why, well believe it or not,we have SO many common touch that clicks together..we have the same taste,same fav colour,same fav food,a fan of the same football player,same fav sport,hates addmaths,love hot n spicy food and best yet, we can be doing the exact same thing at the exact same time! -one thing i wont forget..we ate green apple together while sms-ing..scary but amazing :)  hehe..he’s a really an outgoing guy, fun to be with..he brought me to the ‘outside world’..so much more to explore with him..

theres so much more i want to blog ABout so many other ppl but i just cant fit in the time now..i promise to blog more of u guys out there later on..tata

If you are a girl, and a sister - be it younger or elder to a boy in the family.. your life is almost never a bed of roses - speaking from experience I’m a younger sister to my sister and an elder sister to my brother..

My brother..hmm..someone who is always hyperactive, quite high in merajuking, -i wouldnt say spoilt- but rather, as a kid age 12 and below, he would want everything a kid wants. - toys,cash,fun fun fun and fun..the ASTRO remote control!! erggh.. hehe, a nice bed, his dumb ps2..(sorry)..and so many other things..but most of all, he wants attention..i would not say that as a bad thing because as a child, attention and love is Top priority. He wants to feel loved, to be involve in what me and my sister are doing..our age gap is like 7-10 years apart so its pretty hard for us..now that he has his own activities, own bunch of friends..hes getting better.but i still like him to be involve in my avtivities..even if his not, i’ll always make it a point to tell him what i went through that day/week..

My brother, can be really frustrating at times..he LOVES to mess up the hall, my room ( used to until i practically lost ALL my patience and yaaap..its worth it, he finally understands) ..eats upstairs, blast his games and the tv, leave the air-cond on for the whole day and best of all he never gives up in asking me to play with him ! ..but besides that..all his doing does really test not only my patience but the patience and temper of my dad,my mum, my sister, my cousins and even my friends..but all of us (majority) can hold it in and just let it go accepting the fact that his merely just a child, and for my friends -they respect him as my brother.

My brother, he is always - wait not always, most of the time, he is THERE.. when i need him at most (even when i dont need him at all..hehe).. Like the times when i have argument with my boyfriend, with my mum..he’ll be there.. i can actually talk to him about how i feel at that time..not caring whether he understands it or not, i just let it out.and you’ll be surprise at his reaction. at times, he will cry with me, most of the times he will try to mutualise the situation by saying that owh..mum doesnt mean it, or your friend probably dont know whats going on..sometimes he even give me ideas on what to do next- not all is logical..but the fact that he actually cares..really make me appreciate him all the more. He’s not able to provide for me -not yet- , he’s not able to fully understand what i m going through (but he’s really matured for his age i must admit) ..but what i like about him is that he always tries to make me smile thats one thing all of us should try to work on..of course when he fails to get something done, or something that he wants badly,he doesnt get it..he obviously get mad,sad,frustrated..i mean who doesnt? i do !! so understanding him as a kid, as MY brother..respect to us both and my family is really important, to me. If i have ever overheard..or even hear it straight from a person that my brother is erm..maybe annoying,spoilt,cant handle,too much..etc..i will tend to harbour those angry feelings towards that person.true, maybe my brother is all that he/she have said..but THINK before you speak..im his sister..im connected to him by blood and by heart..no matter how angry or annoyed i get, his my brother and i Love him..i love him for his ’spoiltness’, i love him for his cuteness no one else has..no one..not even my husband or my bestest friend can EVER replace him. so ppl, watch what you may say in front OR even behind me. It goes the same to my parents,my sister, my boyfren (exeptional) and to all my friends dearest to me.

But right now, im really missing him alot..its the weekends and he has outdoor activities like 24hours..n i on the other hand am in the midst of my exam- dont ussually come out of my room unless to consume food so i dont really get to see him, much except during weekdays after im back from school i would try to catch a few minutes to eat and ask him how school wan..then i have to rush of to class..so..yea, really looking forward to spend more time with him end of this year and for the many many more years to come! >.<

sigh…hehe…nola..not sigh..more like..aiyayayaya!!! :p

WHy are Guys so Unpredictable and so urm..how shud i say this.. nevermind..

DO guys actually..should you even ask girls what to do ?? i mean whos the guy here then? like say for example, do you ask a girl what she wants for her birthday?? NOoooooooooo YOU go and find out what she wants - be it family or friends…or say say say….the light bulb is burst..if you’re a man, you would instantly go and get a new bulb and replace the old one without even having to ask to..pretty demanding? i dont think so..its basicly just basic rule -ing.. not discrimination. OR do u even ask HER what should you do when she is pms-ing .. at YOU? Nooooooo for Pete’s Sake, you have friends, she definately have friends ? not a friendly person..theres still her siblings..the internet , n fine..last resort..YOUR BRAIN!! think of something..do that something..take the risk.. watever..if u fail, dont give up..(if u happen to fail more than 5times berturut-turut - ur girl has a loose screw in her head) ..anything you guys do, we appreciate it..( most of it ) what we dont, is that you dare to even question us -HOW? -Next, do u actually switch roles with  girls - i mean you being the girl (waiting..pondering..merajuking..or even manja-ing) —> trust me, dont ever use these words in ur essay !! =P..continueing..ya..do YOU? maybe u never intended to..but somehow ur natural being cause u too..and tell u, when a girl (especially your girl) realises it..u better hope its not too late..AND another thing.. i dont get it, why must guys hold their machoness laa! i mean its cool to know that your cool..but from a friend’s experience, no matter how much a girl(she) tries to make him laugh or do something stupid but cute (harmless) , he aint gonna do it -tunjuk macho la tu..y y y? and please, dont be too sure that the ones you love are always forgiving and understanding..plus its a girl here who we’re talking about

Girls !!! why do act so erm..baby-ish ?? do you know how that makes u look like? hopeless! helpless! childish! u name it! and perhaps SOME guys would like that coz it makes them feel like "they’re there for you", they are the Hero here saving you..but anyways..most guys I know n i think a whole lot of them doesnt really quite like it lar… (guys u can dissagree here if u want) .. like say erm.. u see an ant..a really small ant ( not considering the serangga n the bugs) ..n what do u do? - u practically scream and ask for help..n the guy would "come to your rescue" and kill that ant for you..funny uh? it happens..guys are suppose to be the gentleman here..true..but if u push it way too far..or even close to that POINT.. dont be surprised at how pissed off guys can be NO MATTER how much they love u..its just plain annoyness - u cant say "i thought u love me"..if i was that guy, i would n will dumped u a long long time ago..but dont misunderstand here, u can do it for the sake of fun and maybe seeing how YOUR guy would react..but thats it.stop and be yourself! Dont be too demanding..yet Expecting more than what your guy can give you and then complain on n on n on to ur galfrens making it seem like you’re the one doing EVerything when infact, your boy has been trying all his life !And girls,..jual-ing mahal is a good thing - it shows taht u know What you want and When you want it/him..also u have respect for yourself and your family..but u need to know the limits too.. trust me, i went beyond the limit before..and not to say i regret it..just that i have to tend to so many questions which comes after that =p Guys can get quite fedup sometimes..they mite just lose hope in you or in what to do if u keep on playing "expensive" and before u know it, you’ll be single for the rest of your lives.. scary leh..DONT.

LAstly, both guys & girls have their own flaws..most of them similar..eg both have mood swings- not due to pms , maybe just bad mood or something went wrong n they’re upset for almost the whole day..both have limits to their patience, both have respect for themselves and their family..and most importantly im quite sure if ur in a relationship, both will have the highest hope not to hurt but to protect,guard and secure those feelings for each other aka,mutual understandingLa..i like that hehe..owh, btw..found out a new research..

before marriage = girls are in control , They’re the Queen !!

After marriage = guys are mad mad mad..haha and its the girls turn to "tend" to their so called needs..

Then after a few short moments..its always and HAS to be back to BOTHWAYS..if not, theres something so wrong there *winks* nola.. actually its always both ways ..i meant all that in a joking way.. it just came to me no offence!