KitKat baby

Haha..caught ur interest, didnt i ?? For obvious reasons, this topic never failed to seize attention.It never fails to amaze me, no matter how many times the articles are written, with only the SLIGHTEST variation, we always seem to want to read more about this ultra fascinating relationship.. prove me wrong!

When was the last time you asked a girl what her Mr.Right would be like? Sometimes the girls have expectations that are a little too high for the boys..i know i did..before i got into this current relationship, my criterias were..mmm i wud say pretty high and almost impossible to achieve..but approachable..i always believed that if someone out there who is ‘man enough’ is able to do even the impossible! =p well, to most of my galfrens out there who keep changing boyfriends..i wud say they are most probably affected by the Perfect Boyfriend Syndrome..this kind of expectation are bound to lead ourselves to disappointment..

ok..i know i keep telling n saying that ya..my current darling (haha hopefully the only one, now n forevermore *winks*) is the best, for me..but i still stick to the old saying - Best relationships dont just happen..they have to be worked at. and trust me, we have been working..thru thick & thin Theres the very real possibility that conflict will arise..ok re-phrase..very BIG HUGE possibility of arguments rising..however, with a little compromise and seeing the other person’s point of view will go a long way in holding the relationship together. After all, altho i argue with tim..alot..i know its only a matter of difference in opinion i must admit that there are times when the arguments get out of hand..but hey, nothing cant be worked out..(i learnt it the hard-way *pouts*)

until today, i still find difficulty in not being a ‘green-eyed-moster’.. u know, sometimes..it just happen.. u take all the advantage u have to really secure ur shakey feelings..for eg, u will check his/her phone msges and will totally freakout if u see another guy/girls number..am i right??!! we are always suspicious when there are other ppl of the opp sex around ur partner..n even at the slightest move he/she makes..we just give ‘em that ’sulking face’.. In SOME ways, being a green-eyed-monster (jealous) only proves that u care about them,yourself and the relationship..Unfortunately, too much of anything is never good. The overdose of jealousy will wreck the relationship. TRUST and HONESTY is an important part in a relationship..Neither party wish to live in a cage. u know, i heard of this saying..from a guy who walked pass me by in the park.. he said, "its not about trust here, its about Honesty"..so wat i can conclude is.. hmmm..its not just abt trusting one another..its more about being honest with one another regardless of situation.for me, maybe sometimes i find it hard to open-up or pinpoint what u dont like in my partner..but still, i know some way some how or another, i will havto to do it..my boyfriend is not a god..he won’t know what im feeling unless i tell him/someone..so..unless i tell him, it will always still be ‘there’ n sooner or later…BOOM..i will just blow! :-O hence,communication is a very very important aspect of a healthy and successful relationship

The different types or situation in a boy-girl relationship prove to us that men & women have very different ways of processing emotional information. However, one aspect of the relationship is always within our control : that is, with whom and what type pf relationship u WANT to belong to. This decision will always belong to you and you alone..i know who and what i want..do you ??

mmmm..its a saturday and its the day before Christmas Eve… mmm never expected the day to turn out as it went.. dont worry, its good okay..firstly, rudely awakened by a phone call (house phone) around 8.30am..aha yupe,on a sat morning somore ya know! i cudnt get out of bed to answer the call..so i was thinking if it was for me, that person mite just call my handphone…so it rang n rang until it got bored so it stopped…i went back to sleepyland few minutes later, it decided to irritate me again :P,this time, i tot it was urgent so i got out of bed (amazingly,hehe)..and it was my aunt whom i wasnt close to with at all..she proposed that my whole family come ova for a gathering at her house tonite..as dinner with tim’s parents didnt work out so i said twas ok.done. went back to my bed n i cudnt go back to sleep!!!! this is what happens when u wake me up, make me talk and expect me to go back to sleep..

however, i manage to toss n turn for about one hour ++ hehe :-p finally got out of bed,brush my teeth..went downstairs to look for bfast..saw two packets of nasi lemak n i totally felt like puking.. haha my dad doesnt und that i dont eat nasi lemak for bfast! brunch not so bad la..but bfast??!! annyway…i ate mango instead..it was already cut by mum n dad last nite..they cudnt finish..after that, read the newspaper..then folded the clothes..n hehe decided to disturb my brother as i was disturbed too..haha *evil laugh* .. so i went to my dad’s room n on the TV (my ASTRO just got fixed) so hehe i was desperate..at that moment,he woke up n we fought for the remote control..and i obviously won as he was half awake.. ehehe..watch some cool movies - Judging Amy,Sponge Bob,the making of Eragon,Fairy Odd parents,and some interesting criminal show while waiting for the time to reach 12.30 - cant wait to have lunch with tim..my couz suddd called my brother.he said he was at Kelana Jaya station..just reached from Kuantan..wanted to have lunch together,but my parents were in MidValley so he asked me..n i told him that i was waiting for tim as we were to go out.. he said joinla..he wanted to meet tim too..so i said shud be ok.. but must confirm with tim first la..so waited about 15mins more.. i bathe,then tim called..told him about it and guess WHAT?! he said we were to eat with his parents for lunch!! he didnt tell me earlier as he wanted to ’surprise’ me!! i was well, happy and thankful but yet worried and confuesed coz my couz was already on his way here!!! so called dad n work things out phew,thank God my dad didnt blow n willingly came back at once ! *smiles*

Lunched at Fridays in ou..was great meeting them all once again. I can really see tim taking after his dad! in many good,loving ways.. his mum, well i think i can say…shes exactly like my mum! cute,blur,and friendly Mary (his sis) was as usual, friendly, well-mannered and looking great.Tim was amazing, he showed how much he ‘cared’ for me! haha..nola..i mean it..he was really understanding and im truly grateful *hugs*..went to shop at JUSCO..then we just walked around,met my couz n brother there.. then went off ad..

decided to come ova to my place to sort out the Kuantan pics and the album we had..well,mostly it turn out fine..at first..then things just sorta got a lil complicated..i mean i got ticked off at one point but tim, well he noticed it at once..but i was all cooled off already within a few minutes but tim thought otherwise..soo.. we "talked" about it for awhile…he really was wanting to understand..so thank you in many many ways dearest Lord for granting me a guy who truly wants to change and be the best for me in all that he can. *muacks* we had to part then..as he had dinner and so did i..after he left, i went to my room..decided to jog around the neighbourhood by myself..was pondering a lil here n there la..suddenly the thought of my grandmom came across my mind…mmmm

mmmm, we were talking while waiting for my passport to be done (a few days ago) ..we were talking about ..guys. hehe..she knows tim,met him,ate with him before..but mmm we were talking about my sister’s boyfren first..how he was a different culture and how MOST prob my other grandmom n my fAMIly would react if just if she decides to marry him.She was just saying a Chinese guy would be good..n i staight away brought tim into the pic heehe..n she said, ya…like him..haha she meant as in culture oni gua..then she went on telling me that there was many different kinds of chinese guys.. she said the best was a mix especially those from overseas.. because..her reason was..they are more well-mannered,they dont raise their voices when they speak,have a good personality(most) and she went on..she told me oso about typical chinese guys.. she made it seem quite clear as i can see it from the way they carry themselves, the way they talk,react to people and scenarios.. even the way they sit,stand and walk..and i was like wooow..never knew there were so many "criterias"..hehe i do remember once, my sister complained about wei jin being a ‘typical chinese’ oso..like how he wasnt a gentleman..but to me, i didnt care..coz he really was a gentleman n everything i cud wish for in a guy at that point of time. now,nah..tim’s the BEST ! ehehehe :p..dont get me wrong, i did told tim of him being sorta that ‘typical’ guy..on how he is too loud sometimes,not to me but to other ppl..the way he sit around etc.. n well, lets just say it got pretty ugly..even nowadays, ya he still is like dat..but hmm..donno..im still searching of a reason why… why i am willing to wait,to tolerate,to just hold on..its really amazing n im honestly thinking,God’s hands were and still is in our relationship. although, sometimes..God let us make our own choices, and often we, i know i stray away..but i will never forget the passage in the Bible that says, God forgives each n every sin and accept his children as long as we confess our sins to God. YA, true sometimes even i find confessing not enough to show how sorry i am, but i always remember that i am weak, He is stong and basicly i have no strength to move on without him in my life for i surrendered my life and my all to him, at times(recently) i felt so helpless, so shameful for past actions and decisions i made..i just felt like a clay that begs for Him to mould me again and a lamb to be sheperd by..and when tim kinda sorta sometimes gets me to my highest boiling point, i find that it is very easy for me to forgive and forget and to cool-off..most of the time, i tend to picture Jesus as me in our relationship..how and what he would do..i want so much to be like Him, to forgive without a hold-back, to love unconditionally and to even offer my life as a sacrifice..sometimes i find it cute..haha to remember tim’s hand as how Jesus’ hands were..he had scars of the nails that were forced through his hands.. so im thinking its not really as smooth and leveled in that sense.. and tim has ezima( is that how u spelled it? hehe) ..and so everytime i held his hands, im remembered of Jesus Christ.. lets just hope its a good thing ..hehe

And so..the End is nearing…the Day before Christmas Eve.. gotta go for that family gathering now! tata and Blessed Christmas to all! May we not forget the true Meaning of Christmas.. Happy Birthday,Jesus! *hugs hugs*

OK..prepare yourself to hear my whinning n mumbling.. k..here goes..(obtw,this was yesterday)

reached home from kuantan about almost 6pm..had to rush to bathe and get ready for mum’s office dinner..so left around 6.45..jamming all the way down to KL…was studying on the way coz the next morning i had to take my Undang..so that adds to my headache in the car..thankfully the dinner was GREAT and worth it..i ate lotsa sushi,unagi,this really tasty japanese salad,soft shell crab, loads of crispy tempura,2cups of fruit juice and green tea ice-cream!! yummmmy.. then..on the way home..the curse begun..i tried to study in the car,but my head was spinning round n round..so i just slept off..then got out of the car..came home almost midnite.. had to dry my clothes which i washed before i left, just to realise i lost my bracelet which i loved most..errghh..when upstairs.dump everything on the fall (i havnt really unpack my stuff), brush my teeth, prayed awhile and just dozed off to dreamland.. within just a few moments,my alarm rang..so loud that i got so annoyed..shut it and when ack to sleep..n then 5minutes later,it rang again. i gave in and got out of bed..it was 7.45am..my transport was only gonna be here at 8.30 so i went down to give my dad my touch n go card to reload n went upstairs to get ready..then suddenly my bed looked so tempting n i gave in to it..hehe i lay down for less than 60sec n my door bell rang.thought it was nicole because she said she wanted to be here earlier to talk..so i let my dad get the door..but noooooo.. instead my dad appear to MY room door and said "what are u still doing, the Metro guy is already outside!!"..i was soo shocked that i just got out of bed and called nicole n my other gurlfren..they were shocked too because they said that he would come qat 8.30.. anyway, i just took my time to get ready and ya we got in arn 8.30am anyway..hehe but it was a mad rush la.

then we went all the way to shah alam…waited for 30minutes then we were transfered to another further part of shah alam in seksyen 18 which took like another half an hour in the car..finally got out of the car..lined up to hand in our IC to the man in charge.. n guess WHAT..i forgot to bring my iC !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost died at that point of time ok! the guy was like, no IC cant take exam.. n i was sad,frustrated,angry and confuesed! so i called my mum… she went all the way home to get my iC and came back to shah alam.. there was two Giant i shahalam..it was the only landmark i cud give to her..so instead she stopped at Giant seksyen 13 when i was in seksyen 18..so we had a really huge misunderstanding while i was trying to look for her car under the hot sun..n yes, i was partly bathing in sweat! finally, i called my dad to direct her coz hes the only guy who i cud think of who is patient enough..haha and yupe within 45mins, my mum found her way n i got my IC, thank GOD. but whatya know..the held us back for 5hours waiting in the room which the stupid air-cond was spoilt so it was sooo hot.. nic n san got so pissed off n they went to buy breakfast while i stayed in the room because i was still catching my breath. When it was our turn to go in (1pm) the guy said..ok next round..coz they need to fullfil their friday prayers..so we were asked to come back at 2.30pm.. and that time..nicole just blew off and questioned the poor guy.. i on the other hand called the Metro office n complained n scolded.. partially raising my voice but they said sorry n there was ntg they cud do..sandra was even better..her face was read burning n we all just walked out of the room..n haha.i emo-ed at my dad for the first time thru sms..he was calming me down but i cudnt be botheredla.. we walked to McD’s for lunch..n they made us wait to get our Fish Dippers which pisseded nicole even more…it was funny in a sense that all of us were angry (but not to each other)..just to ppl around us..hehe..can u imagine..we woke up at 7am+, rush all the way.. stressed our head coz we havnt finish reading the stupid undang book,made us wait for 6 crazy hours just to sit for the 30minutes computerize exam! urgghhh..

but anyways,in McD there was the 2007 calendar which i took 4copy(me,tim,nic n san)..on the way out after we sat for the exam we had to cross over this big huge drain..so i manage to crossed it n while helping nicole over, one of the calendar fell off my hand right into the dirty, smelly water filled drain! haha..all her fault..hehe in the hall, nicole failed her exam JUST BY TWO marks..can u imagine..all the waiting..she had to re-sit it on sunday.. sandra n i manage to pass la, thank the LORD..but sandra’s results had problem coz they cudnt detect her tumb print so ya, that held us back while more..we finally reach the academy around 4.20pm.. arrange n booked our place for the next 6hour bengkel on sunday..n waited for transport home.manage to reach home only around 5.30pm..

i was soo dizzy n exhausted but i was to go to Sunway for Planet SHakers concert it turned out great la..adrian drove me and sherlynn there..we manage to pass through the heavy traffic n reach under shelther just before it poured heavily! searched high n low at the Pramid Tower for parking and we were granted one. amen. Went to Auntie Anne’s to grab a bite before we went in..we didnt manage to get the front seat but by the time the singers came out, everyone rushed to the front!! was so packed..nic,sher n i stand in between the chairs..was a strategic place as we could see the stage and the screen clearly..adrian was lost somewhere in the middle.. hehe..we sang our hearts out and the music was fantastic! we jump n jump till my side ached..hehe..twas a good way to let out my emoness which i pondered since the morning..haha..the preaching was AMAZING..God touched my heart that night and without realising,i just cried so much…tears of regret,joy and happiness. so many things that reminded me of my sinful nature and how God’s unfailing love shown upon me..all the pastors went around to people and prayed for each of us. two youth pastors came up to me to pray for me stregthen me as i think he saw i was crying alot..his prayed touched me even more and..hmmm..i just cudnt stop..we were all hand in hand and nicole held myhand tight..she was tearing too.. finally the last few songs we all smiled at each other, still hand in hand praising God..

Left sunway about erm 11somthing.. dropped nicole and sherlynn off then joined adrian n hi friends at ss2 Murni mamak was good.. i manage to talk to timothy for a moment, saw my couz n his bunch of friends..it was a good Nite although i was really out of energy. then came home around 1am+..brushed teeth,prayed and staight away fell asleep! when i woke up this morning, i had 8msges and two ppl called me..n my brother came in my room..so many interruptions..i could have slept longer but .aiya,,just wake upla..clean my room, unpack loads of stuffs..ate nasi lemak for brunch ..manage to catch up with my mummy n went through all the possible courses i mite take up.. phycology is totally out..neither of my parents encourage me.. so its between busineess and management OR pharmacy. Thats all.  Im praying hard that the Lord will guide me to the right course and selection of career in the future..till then, sayonara!

Heehehe..ref to title : SPM !!! wohooooooo.. *sighs of relief*

manny things happened today i would like to thank God for.. first of all is for granting me a disiplined self to wake up before 9am to study..(paper at 2pm)  then..for i kinda did something not so good while hanging the clothes =p very clumsy..but i was able to "undo" it then..mum came home JUST in time for me to eat lunch and went to school..wearing uniform today made me miss my old routine in school but im glad i carried my responsibilty at school well

When i was at school..haha twas weird..so quiet..only 3 of us took the subject..the invigilators were rather friendly.. they "welcomed" us..haha all men..the ladies didnt come..so 3 of us sat in the big hall.we had a chat with the inv b4 we started our paper.. the paper was GOOD n amazingly answerable..thank God.. although i forgot some stuff..just hoping for the best whatever the outcome is then..a huge massive storm came around 3pm..was so noisy with raindrops n thunder..but i cud still consentrate..hehe.. then the least unexpected thing..Tim came..n we got to spend time together at the park ! -someone who i wanted to see most after my LAst paper..so u see, God do loves me and understands me..he provides in miracoulous ways (tim got half day off which was unexpected either,amen) then went for dinner with dad, mum and bryan at One Utame..wanted to watch HAPPY FEET with bro.. manage to drag mum n dad to watch too (they rarely agree to watch movies)..but SADLY..GSC was out of seats n TGV wasnt showing it anymore for the nite..so instead we watched ‘Dejavu’..never expected it to be that GOOOOD..! twas kinda scary/sad/confuesing.. was seating beside bryan..so i had to pull his hand and roll my hands  under his..n when some ‘not nice’ scenes came, he was my "mangsa" haha..hes hand is prob swallen now..hehhehe..

But before we watched the movie..bryan was being soooo sweet.. he actually bought me my kurakura..sooooooooo cuteeeee.. hung it on my fon but HOWEVER..its not hanging there anymore.. because my sis BROKE IT..she was either soo jealous or pure clumsineess..heh ..anyways..the day was just great n unexpected i shall now be able to rest in PEACE (not the dead kind of peace) but rather in PEEEEACE..hehe..dats all for now!