The Day before Christmas Eve 23rd DEC 06
mmmm..its a saturday and its the day before Christmas Eve… mmm never expected the day to turn out as it went.. dont worry, its good 
okay..firstly, rudely awakened by a phone call (house phone) around 8.30am..aha yupe,on a sat morning somore ya know! i cudnt get out of bed to answer the call..so i was thinking if it was for me, that person mite just call my handphone…so it rang n rang until it got bored so it stopped…i went back to sleepyland 
few minutes later, it decided to irritate me again :P,this time, i tot it was urgent so i got out of bed (amazingly,hehe)..and it was my aunt whom i wasnt close to with at all..she proposed that my whole family come ova for a gathering at her house tonite..as dinner with tim’s parents didnt work out so i said twas ok.done. went back to my bed n i cudnt go back to sleep!!!! this is what happens when u wake me up, make me talk and expect me to go back to sleep..
however, i manage to toss n turn for about one hour ++ hehe :-p finally got out of bed,brush my teeth..went downstairs to look for bfast..saw two packets of nasi lemak n i totally felt like puking.. haha my dad doesnt und that i dont eat nasi lemak for bfast! brunch not so bad la..but bfast??!! annyway…i ate mango instead..it was already cut by mum n dad last nite..they cudnt finish..after that, read the newspaper..then folded the clothes..n hehe decided to disturb my brother as i was disturbed too..haha *evil laugh* .. so i went to my dad’s room n on the TV (my ASTRO just got fixed) so hehe i was desperate..at that moment,he woke up n we fought for the remote control..and i obviously won as he was half awake.. ehehe..watch some cool movies - Judging Amy,Sponge Bob,the making of Eragon,Fairy Odd parents,and some interesting criminal show while waiting for the time to reach 12.30 - cant wait to have lunch with tim..my couz suddd called my brother.he said he was at Kelana Jaya station..just reached from Kuantan..wanted to have lunch together,but my parents were in MidValley so he asked me..n i told him that i was waiting for tim as we were to go out.. he said joinla..he wanted to meet tim too..so i said shud be ok.. but must confirm with tim first la..so waited about 15mins more.. i bathe,then tim called..told him about it and guess WHAT?! he said we were to eat with his parents for lunch!! he didnt tell me earlier as he wanted to ’surprise’ me!! i was well, happy and thankful but yet worried and confuesed coz my couz was already on his way here!!! so called dad n work things out phew,thank God my dad didnt blow n willingly came back at once ! *smiles*
Lunched at Fridays in ou..was great meeting them all once again. I can really see tim taking after his dad! in many good,loving ways.. his mum, well i think i can say…shes exactly like my mum! cute,blur,and friendly Mary (his sis) was as usual, friendly, well-mannered and looking great.Tim was amazing, he showed how much he ‘cared’ for me! haha..nola..i mean it..he was really understanding and im truly grateful *hugs*..went to shop at JUSCO..then we just walked around,met my couz n brother there.. then went off ad..
decided to come ova to my place to sort out the Kuantan pics and the album we had..well,mostly it turn out fine..at first..then things just sorta got a lil complicated..i mean i got ticked off at one point but tim, well he noticed it at once..but i was all cooled off already within a few minutes but tim thought otherwise..soo.. we "talked" about it for awhile…he really was wanting to understand..so thank you in many many ways dearest Lord for granting me a guy who truly wants to change and be the best for me in all that he can. *muacks* we had to part then..as he had dinner and so did i..after he left, i went to my room..decided to jog around the neighbourhood by myself..was pondering a lil here n there la..suddenly the thought of my grandmom came across my mind…mmmm
mmmm, we were talking while waiting for my passport to be done (a few days ago) ..we were talking about ..guys. hehe..she knows tim,met him,ate with him before..but mmm we were talking about my sister’s boyfren first..how he was a different culture and how MOST prob my other grandmom n my fAMIly would react if just if she decides to marry him.She was just saying a Chinese guy would be good..n i staight away brought tim into the pic heehe..n she said, ya…like him..haha she meant as in culture oni gua..then she went on telling me that there was many different kinds of chinese guys.. she said the best was a mix especially those from overseas.. because..her reason was..they are more well-mannered,they dont raise their voices when they speak,have a good personality(most) and she went on..she told me oso about typical chinese guys.. she made it seem quite clear as i can see it from the way they carry themselves, the way they talk,react to people and scenarios.. even the way they sit,stand and walk..and i was like wooow..never knew there were so many "criterias"..hehe i do remember once, my sister complained about wei jin being a ‘typical chinese’ oso..like how he wasnt a gentleman..but to me, i didnt care..coz he really was a gentleman n everything i cud wish for in a guy at that point of time. now,nah..tim’s the BEST ! ehehehe :p..dont get me wrong, i did told tim of him being sorta that ‘typical’ guy..on how he is too loud sometimes,not to me but to other ppl..the way he sit around etc.. n well, lets just say it got pretty ugly..even nowadays, ya he still is like dat..but hmm..donno..im still searching of a reason why… why i am willing to wait,to tolerate,to just hold on..its really amazing n im honestly thinking,God’s hands were and still is in our relationship. although, sometimes..God let us make our own choices, and often we, i know i stray away..but i will never forget the passage in the Bible that says, God forgives each n every sin and accept his children as long as we confess our sins to God. YA, true sometimes even i find confessing not enough to show how sorry i am, but i always remember that i am weak, He is stong and basicly i have no strength to move on without him in my life for i surrendered my life and my all to him, at times(recently) i felt so helpless, so shameful for past actions and decisions i made..i just felt like a clay that begs for Him to mould me again and a lamb to be sheperd by..and when tim kinda sorta sometimes gets me to my highest boiling point, i find that it is very easy for me to forgive and forget and to cool-off..most of the time, i tend to picture Jesus as me in our relationship..how and what he would do..i want so much to be like Him, to forgive without a hold-back, to love unconditionally and to even offer my life as a sacrifice..sometimes i find it cute..haha to remember tim’s hand as how Jesus’ hands were..he had scars of the nails that were forced through his hands.. so im thinking its not really as smooth and leveled in that sense.. and tim has ezima( is that how u spelled it? hehe) ..and so everytime i held his hands, im remembered of Jesus Christ.. lets just hope its a good thing ..hehe
And so..the End is nearing…the Day before Christmas Eve.. gotta go for that family gathering now! tata and Blessed Christmas to all! May we not forget the true Meaning of Christmas.. Happy Birthday,Jesus! *hugs hugs*
