Dearest Lord,
I thank you,father for everything you have gave me in my earthly life..Thank you most of all for timothy, Lord. Im truly ever grateful to have known him more than a friend.Thank you,Jesus for giving me that love that i may share it with him. I have known You more and more as i share my faith with timothy,Lord.I know Lord that You are watching me as i type out this prayer to you Lord.I know You, Lord that only You know how i feel at this very moment. There is no other than tim,Lord that can satisfy me. I want him Lord, i need him in my Life..He does not provide me freedom and eternal happiness like You do Lord, but he is my boyfriend, he is the one i want to spend my life with Lord, no one else.I cant help but to question why..why Jesus..that You would want me to have to go through this phase of life? Why do i have to see him suffer,in a way ? i have been crying Lord, to You..to have your healing hands upon him..to have YOUR mercy on us Lord..i have faith in You Lord..but im being as honest as i can..i am not spiritually strong Lord, i need You to grant me the strength Lord..i am not ready, not ready at All if You would decide to take him back to You now Lord..i know You gave him to me, You have all the right to take him back, but please..please hear my cries to you, im begging you with all that i have in me..let him stay,not just for now, but forevermore.. i Love him Lord, i really do.Just please let him stay and let him heal. May You once again, work miracles through the trials that we face. In Jesus’ name, i pray, Amen.
*prayer answered, Thank you,Lord. Tim is fully-recovered now, had a great holiday in Bali with his family and is able to eat like a mad-pig again! hehehe..amen, love u darling..so much!*