KitKat baby

*pout* i still havnt got my lazy bum to buy me a de-stresser

well..*deep breathe* i guess i can say today is a much better day..coz firstly..my morning went pretty well instead of the usual 6.30am wake-up..i woke up at 7.30am one hour more in bed means the world to me! no no i din wake up late.. dad had a meeting at SHeraton Subang arn 8.30am so he ask me to go with him..n he SUGGESTED i be late for class (8am)..i was hesitant but then again.. i remembered it was LAN period..so yay..im so gonna skip the first half..so yippie..no..i dint get to drive..dint wanto anyway..was still very very sleepy..instead of taking the toll way, we took the LDP..altho it was gona be more jam..i cudnt care less…LAN is boring…on the way there..suddenly esther msged me -Hey gal..No LAN class..take ur time..woohoo !! i told my dad n he SMILED BIG.. haha he was feeling bad when he saw it was 8.15 n we were not even close to Taylors..haha so there.. not a bad day uh..

got in Campus..the girls were hanging arn..dont know where to go oso..i came then suggested then we go to the comp lab..i wanted to check my mail n book gsc tickets so we stayed there till 9am.. then went to the theater..was actually a court room.. watched Devil Wears Prada never knew such nice shoes can turn out to be a horrible assignment.. i froze in there while watching the show for an hour.. continueing tmr..yay got a whole list of behaviour-attitude form to fill up for all the characters in the show *bummer-spoiler* hehe.. owell..then other classes resumed as usual

3pm- gathered the ppl for worship practice..just to realise our spot was locked..for a month we can practice at OASIS -place we go to sing…so …decided to go campus city they were havin a worshipleading workshop by Pastor Sandra.. was really good..first time meeting her..she was really semangat-ted and high ehheehe..Daniel, Sherlin, Sze Toh, velerie n samuel were there.. it was great fun..o the best part..i told Sze Tho abt ya..my disasterous chemistry moment..n ya he didnt finish his paper too..but mine was definately blank-er..haha..such a gentleman..sweet..charming.. drummer who promised to teach me drumming boarded the bus at 4.15pm..slept through the whole journey..never knew i was so exhausted..nichol was shocked n amazed that i cud get up in time..haha so bad..cruel..he wanted to NOT wake me up ! c2pid boy..=p

then came home..drop my bags..nicole was already waiting outside..drove to the park..chitchat-ed till our jaws almost drop..then felt the rain..rush into the car..drove to a frens hse to give back something then yay..finally back home..:) suppose to study tonite..ended up surfing,playing,chatting n haha blogging coz i took the laptop to my room.. looks like i wont be sleeping tonite owell..yup..ok conclusion : if u put it behind u, u really can move on and smile..theres so much more in life then the setupid-no-time chem paper…BUT I STUDIED THE WHOLE FREAKING WEEKEND..sigh..like i said put it BE-H-I-N-D me..gawsh..hehe..till the next disasterous event .. CHOI! haha toodles..

Such a bad bad bad day.

ps:updating my blog had been a real push my SOMEONE who says they can almost see spider webs around here..hehe =p

Morning was great..i guess..cosiderabEly..woke up just in time to grab my breakfast..was walking down to the bus-stop while chatting with tim met nichol..chitchatted while we walk down together.. studied chemistry while waiting for the bus to arrive.. guess what..it was late..=S anyways..thats that..so i missed Prayer Meeting today..went to class staight..met sheena n she commented on my ’sexy’ voice..haha im still recovering from my sorethroat first period was not even a period..lect came in n discuss abt the common test that was held on 10am..so studied all i could while helping each other..then psycho…stole the whole period to study more chem..

finally..it as 9.50..getting nervous already while walking to the exam hall..climbing the high tower of Taylor’s, esther made the lame-est joke ever..haha n i started laughing like mad..almost fell of the stairs! (i shud have, realising it now..) then sheena n sherlin continued more jokes…so we managed to de-stress for while.. when we reach the top, we realised we were the 1st five nerds there! so we stared down at our frens who were still walking n continued making jokes n laughs..then before we know it..we were called to go in the hall..as usual, it was FREEZING! settled down at my place..took a deep breath (feeling quite confident as i devoted by whole weekend on this dumb exam), said a prayer and wrote my details on the paper distributed..as soon as the lect say start..i opened the paper n started pen-ing my brain out….twas quite confuesing at first…then i manage to get the hang of it..

it was 10.30 am n i was only ending part2 (there were 4 parts and one essay) ..so i told myself to hurry up..n i did..when i was stuck at one part, i skipped it n went on..then..a really loud voice i heard .. "FIVE MORE MINUTES!"..i panicked! i was still in the middle of part3.. i flipped to the end page..rushed my essay like i never rushed before..i have done the essay abt 5times now..yet there was no time to write everything i know! then he said "ALL PENS DOWN ! NOW! " i couldnt care less..i flipped the pages filling the blanks i left..n he said to me, "GIRL, PEN DOWN!"..i gave in. slammed my pen on the table n gave my paper…feeling as terrible as i was.. sherlin, seating in front of me has rested her head on the desk n started crying..i cudnt confort her as i myself was feeling as horrible as ever..tears rolled down as i felt so so so irritated..walked out of the hall..went for eng class..everyone made the face indicating ‘NO CHEMISTRY TALK". that was then..more tears from the heart came.. i was just so..i dunno..hurt ? i studied so much n yet i cudnt let it out..it cud be a diff story altogether if i didnt know how to answer, but this was i DO KNOW the asnwers..just NO BLOODY TIMe.. ughhhh..seriously, theres no hope , no point in studying at that point anymore..ways of commiting real suicide was running through my mind..msged tim…feeling as needy as ever, i wanted to hug him so badly..he called..made things a lil better..but still devastated.

then sheena, rachel n sherlin..being the darlings as the are bought me n esther apple pie from mcD thank u girls *hugs* went late into Lan class thanks to my bio essay…walked into the lecture theater.. missed a step n tripped! lucky didnt fall n bang my head on the floor..another stupid embarrasing act of mine *rolls eyes* after that had maths..even worst..had my Direct Investigation..group work.. didnt finish oso..not enuf time..there goes my few percentage of myfinal marks…*screaming out loud*…sat through bio lecture.. didnt hear a word she said..was thinking of the bad day im having n wondering whats the next worse thing that could happen..then Boom! lightning…how great..the weather is turning its back on me now..how i hate rainy days in college..n it just HAD to rain today.. urrghhh..thank the Lord bio ended v.early..me n sherlin ran out of campus as the sky was really dark n it was starting to pour!! called tim to tell him i dinwan him to come over as the rain was getting heavier…but he was already on the way..owell..

sat aT my fav pastry shop with sherlin..flipping the magazine while pouting to myself..then whilst sherlin was buying a bun to share, timmy darling popped up behind me..wow..i can tell u, i felt the burden i bore was somehow gone for that minute..gave him  bigbig huggie n i felt my world became so much brighter u can really tell when that someone is really your special someone :-* then within a few seconds..once again i felt like dying..*sigh*..having tim beside my n sherlin on the other side somehow made things a lil better.. but not great…they did manage to make me smile and laugh though but i was still dissapointed as i was deep down inside it was 4pm, the bus came..left for home sweet home..

Got home..felt so tired..lost alot of blood..still feel like dying.. called my galfrens but no one was home..just finish raining n the weather was too great not to take a walk..so got in my shoes..again n went to the park..didnt jog tho..was really exhausted..but just walk..started thinking, pondering on my most horrible day..starting feeling like theres no more hope..looking at the people arn me.. wishing i was them..doing things pathetic people do..etc..haha nola..not THAT bad..but ya..was just strolling arn..enjoying nature.. prayed to God to grant me strength..peace..wisdom n faith.. then as i was walking back home..a few kids pass me by..age i dunno..6 ? 7? they waved at me..they dont usually do..but today..they were extremely friendly..most of them just came home from school.. they waved n said hi to me..to some, i smiled..to some i waved back..they’re really cute.. then i was nearing the house..realising hmmm..was that a sign from God ? little kids? could it be? maybe.. i felt happier..noticing i was smilling to myself..thinking how God shows His unfailing love and grace to his child (me) when i ask of Him.. =D n i decided..i have two choices.. #1 i can stay angry and devastated..holding on my failures and continue whining.. or #2 i can start working harder on my time management, score better in my midterms and put back that smile i once had.. so what would it be? definately number # 2 !

then got home..bathe…rested awhile..then had to go for dinner.. went to TESCO..nothing new..ate mamak..went grocery shopping again..was really desperate to eat kitkat…its the only thing i can find that will satisfy my anger inside..found it! dropped it in the trolley..really cudnt wait for dad to pay for it .. we went round n round buying junkfood n ice creams finally..at the counter.. my mouth was watering..haha yes, i really do love kitkat chunks then while waiting in line..suddenly remembered i wanted to check something..so took bryan with me n we went to the ice cream corner..cudnt decide what i wanted to get..so didnt bother..ran back to the counter..daddy already finish paying..pushed the stuff back to the car..was looking for my kitkat chunk in the plastic bag n guess WHAT…yup right you are..it wasnt THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i ask dad n he said.." o, twas urs ah? tot bryan simply put in so i dint buy it.." ..n i was like..*blank* *speechless*.. so sad..once again..i wanted to just commit suicide..commonla..anything else can happen.. just not my kitkat !! ugggghhhhhhhh …a hhhhhhhhhhhh… when i reached home, i almost drove out to 7-11 to get my kitkat but the camry was blocking my car.so what the heck..

so i shall still be angry n dissapointed until i eat my kitkat chunk! its almost 10pm and i havnt started any work today…so crappy.. WHAT ELSE COULD GO WRONG?! *!!!!*

-sad,lost of hope,pathetic lil kitkat baby signing off-