KitKat baby

I’ve had many tears and sorrow,

I’ve had many questions for tomorrow,

There’ve been times i didnt know right from wrong,

But in every situation, God gave blessed consolation,

That my trials come to only make me stronger.

Through it all, i’ve learned to trust in Jesus more and more.

I’ve been to lots of places, I’ve seen lots of faces,

There’ve been times i felt so alone

But in my lonely hours, Jesus let me know that i was His own.

I thank God for the mountains, for the valleys,

For if i’d never had a problem, I wouldn’t know that he could solve them, I’d never know what faith in God could do.

For those of you who know me well, i’ve always wanted a dog… eversince Michelle - my shih-tzu was given away,i’ve been praying for a dog..2years after,God answeredmy prayer..an abonded puppy..roughly 5-6weeks afterbirth.. My sister hadcalled me up to tell me aboutit..i was so happy. She was perfect in every way. Quiet,obidient,goldfur,adorable and healthy! I must admit tho that she was very scared n nervous the day we brought her home.. i did have difficulties playing with her at first..but2days later, she became my BEST buddy…i wud notmiss a chance to pat her nplay fetch with her the moment i come home nbefore i go to sleep… She was truly a blessing in so manyways to me andmy family.. 2days ago, my sis brought her for vaccination..to our horror, she was anemic and had 2types of worm inher body. Doctor said she was too weak tobe givenvaccination..nthat at her age tobe receiving all these..it cud befatal.. i was devastated..but i had faith. I prayed.. that she will be healed..yday was with her at nite..she couldnot standup no more..she was just so tired..she cudnt eat her bfast,lunch nordinner..we cud do nothing but tried to feed her milk n crushed biscuits..i went to bed tat nite..worrying..butstil praying.. this morning b4 i left..i saw her..she looked at me..i smiled..i told her in my heart that she will be alright. she looked much better.. at abt 12pm..i got a call from my sis in college..it was a real breakdown for me. Pickles, the pup tat was everything to me at that time was gone.. gone.. what else cud i do but wonder… wonder in confusion…then i realised today that her purpose here was done. She brought peace and harmony to my family. It may have been less than a week, but she has done great things as a puppy..*questions pops up* Does all dogs go to heaven? maybe… i know God will take her in, there she will be healthy once again, waiting for me, watching over me ..

The only two words playing in my head rite now is.. ‘IF ONLY’. If only you have come to me a few weeks earlier, if only Jesus was on earth to raise u up, if only i had more chance to play and pat you more, if only you did not leave. If only.. Pickles, you will always have a part of my heart with you. May you rest in peace. I will be missing you.Hugs

RIP Pickles